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Monday, July 25th, 2005
11:00 pm	Real blog update (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 9th, 2004
12:35 am	Major News update. You Must Check This Out (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, June 30th, 2004
12:47 am	This is my last post here for a good long while. moveable type has been very good to me so far and I'm going to keep using it. Please update your links, bookmarks, etc to my journal over at http://orion.vendaworld.com/blog I'll be keeping my lj account but mostly for commenting now, like the 2 year blackout I had about 2 years back. The new journal will allow me to do a lot more with much less effort. Hope to see you all there (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 28th, 2004
11:24 pm	new post on the other site lockheed can kiss my ass (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 18th, 2004
10:48 pm	Trying the new blog for a while. http://orion.vendaworld.com/blog/ Not much for now, hopefully it will get better once i get a walkthrough on how it all works. If i like it enough it may become my permanent home. (Comment on this)
Friday, April 30th, 2004
10:29 pm	After listening to the new BB almub for a while it has grown on me a bit, but still isn't as strong as the last one. while downloading porn the other day someone queued up every single rage song I had. I worked rather hard for those albums so I was a bit miffed. I checked his listing to see if he was at least sharing something. He did have a nice little collectien up. got some In Flames single B-side tracks, and took a gamble on a band called Sonata Arctica. I'ts official, American metal sucks. Sonata Arctica is a Finnish progressive metal band. They have an absolutely amazing range. Their cover of Metallica's Fade to Black is so effortless only once you hear it can you realize how much metallica really sucks. This is a band every hard music person needs to at least listen to. Decision has been made. I am going to the wedding. I started chatting with nicole and she told me I was coming up there, so it is. Reid set up some space for me on his web server, so I'm going to get a bit more aquainted with it then add it as a parralell blog maybe phasing this one out if I can figure out what I need to. Sonata Arctica - Softer Songs: The Misery Draw Me Tallulah - Mix Broken My Land The Power of One - Subdued Letter to Dana Last Drop Falls Graven Image - Hard Victoria's Secret Wolf and Raven The Rest of the Sun Belongs to Me Current Music: Sonata Arctica - Broken (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 21st, 2004
8:50 pm	>looks down at last post< wow, april 5...I guess yall deserve an update. even though only 2 of you voiced your opinions. Of course I got the new BB album from kevin. I have to agree with him a bit. it really is half-baked. So Cold and Ordinary human are both good songs, and the 2 strongest. That we agreed on, most of the others could stimulate some good discussion. I was taking a liking to the musical effort in the songs. It really sounds like they're looking for a new sound. I'd say download it if you get the chance, then send the band a check for $5 for the cd. that's my new theory. download it and send the band the money. not that I can afford to do even that right now. I'm still not sure what to do about the nicole thing. I'd liek to hear some more feedback about it. I don't have much time left to rsvp, but I think I may have to call her and talk to her for a while about it. I went to fix the gas leak on my truck the other week. the monting bolts are rusted together. I can't get the nuts off, plus it's a fucking 15mm head size. that just pisses me off. any other bolt I'd just dremel off. You really can't do that with the gas tank nuts. gas tanks tend to be a bit touchy when you do that kind of shit. Wolfe's farm. That was the last weekend's camping trip. it was SO wonderful to be back out there again. It's totally changed since the last time I was there. we lost a site because of a property sale, so everything shifted around a little. It's kinda sad to know that I'll never be able to go back to the camp I remember so vividly. it'll never be the same. Even the stump we used as a table the first few years is gone totaly now. I think I need to hunt around and find a spot there that will truly be my own. fortunately we'll be going back in october. I still don't have a job yet. this is getting really old really fast. I'm just so frustrated. I'd at least like to know what the fuck is going on. Lockheed has me on a "short list" lemme guess the post-it note you got in january that's buried somewhere? A small bit of joy for the last moth came from here. ctrl-alt-del online did a comic plotline with the x-bot. you'll pick up the character's traits very quickly reading other parts of teh archive. but in a night of drunken wisdom Ethan set out to improve his x-box to the ultimate gaming machine. at the end of the weekend he had the sentient x-bot. the storyline's a good read. I just hope may is finally the month for me. Current Music: Breaking Benjamin - So Cold (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, April 5th, 2004
11:01 pm	These 30 new scouts will be the death of me yet. Maybe it's Time I let go of the troop a little, get a job somewhere else, and pick up with a new troop. I was going over the tents, and there were a total of 7 with some type of damage to them. fucking 7 out of 20 or so. not all of it was major, but 3 had major tears in the tent itself. fucking moron kids. you'd think it wouldn't be really hard to take care of the tents a little bit. dumb shits. I'm about ready to set them on fire. Nicole's wedding is on the 23rd of may. each time i start really thinking about it I've hit the bottle pretty hard. (when she first told me and when i got teh invitation) I will have to rsvp, so that's one more night, and then I'll probably be pretty smashed the entire time I was there. just so I don't do something stupid and i can enjoy it. I want everyone that reads this to voice their opinion, including anon posts, just leave a name. SHould I go to her wedding, or should I go camping taht weekend. or more realistically, can my livir handle watching her get married? as soon as it warms up some I have to find the gas leak on my rear tank. i have an idea where to look for it. I'm just praying it's a small hole. that can be fixed with a sheet metal screw and an o-ring. otherwise I'm up shit creek. a new tank starts at 150 and goes up quick from there. my grandfather borrowed it today to move some furniature for his grand daughter-in-law gave me $50 for the favor. those people in NE PA have too much fun without me. I want to be up there with them. someone needs to help me find a job up there. $750 for a sucessful tip to good employment. ask for my resume. I suppose that'll do for now. I'm still trying to recover from the weekend. Current Music: The Ballad Of Irving (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 26th, 2004
12:00 am	well the camping weekend helped a bit. I'm nowhere near as down as I was that night with my bottle. my mind is really starting to jump all over the place. I'm realyl starting to go crazy. The next person that talks down to me or condescendingly about employment to me is getting cut, I don't care if it's my own mother. The troop is realyl interesting with nearly 60 scouts at every meeting. it's a whole new type of chaos. My brother's been home for spring break this week. we talked politics for about 120 seconds. Then agreed never to do it again. he was ready to fight me after that little bit. all i did was correctly identify george W bush as an international terrorist, and said that there was nothing wrong with gay marriage. it was kinda funny to see how seriously he took it. I was being a little more extreme than I believe, but since he's just slightly right of the kaiser he took it pretty hard. whatever I'd now like to welcome all the fbi, nsa, and secret service operatives as well as the ones from organizations I missed that now read my journal regularly as a result of the words i chose in the last section. Just so you know I say what I feel, I really don't care if you waste your time and effort tracking me. I believe the greatest powers we have are our free speech, right to vote, and right to assemble. The people that abuse those rights are the ones that screw things up for the rest of us. fuck it. I've been working on my video settings for video recording. I'm trying to get the flyers-ottowa game in a good high res video. I have a decent mpeg1 setting group that works anytime. and I'm fine tuning the vhs quality mpeg 2 setting right now. I finally found a website that gave me some realyl good info, most of it more technical than I needed, but it gave me some equivalences, so i had something to work with. part of the problem I was having is I really needed to kill all non-essential programs to free up the processor. it's an k7 classic @950. I just don't have the $$ to get it running much faster right now. I don't have the $$ to do much of anything right now. it really sucks. I do suppose that's enough griping for now. Current Music: In Flames - The Quiet Place (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 17th, 2004
10:53 pm	ok let's recap the last 5 days: melissa gets a date with a guy that's grown really fond of her has one the next night too, now he's ever for dinner every night she'll be at rutgers this weekend, but is dating him, so I'd be able to hang out with her and nothing more. nicole called me during lunch today, she's getting married in the end of may. yeah k the chem major in our pchem1 class that i was nuts over. we've been best friends ever since, but I've always wanted her. my one chance to get here there was another girl in the picture. boy was that a stupid choice. I've never wanted anyone more than i do her. then Sera tells me she's going to mexico for SR clall trip. I never got to have one. We planned it, but thu school board said no, because 500 some people signed up, but we had to have 2/3rds of the class going to have it. that's a supermajority at 620 people. it didn't make any difference in my activities just added insilt to injury. as you can probably tell I'm totally shitfaced by now as a result of all this. I can only take so much before I go back to comforting behaviors. Current Music: Joe Satriani - Always With Me Always With You (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 6th, 2004
11:27 pm	my parent's church had their annual antique show this weekend. I took my brother's place helping out in the kitchen. it's fuckin hot in there. I had my pants/shorts on, and quickly zipped off the legs after arriving. yesterday I worked 3-9 or so, and today was 10-7, not that I could do much after 5. I was helping one of the vendors carry stuff out, and on one of my return trips twisted the hell out of my ankle coming back into the gym. The girls I was working with in the kitchen (all moms of one generation or another) are trying to set me up wih one of the other's daughter. about the same age, high 5's to low 6's in height, but a bit chunky. Still pretty cute though, and defitanely a possibilty. she's elementry ed. The problem is with the current tradition in american dating. the dinner and a movie or dinner and some activity really irritates the hell out of me. yeah, it's doing something with them, but it's more of a show of how much you're willing to spend on a girl . basically it comes down to buying your girlfriends. if you can't spend x amount on them every week you can't date them. it's so bullshit. I think a night at on the sofa with a little wine and o movie is a much better way to spend time. the problem is that now that is considered "being cheap." I don't like eating out, and I don't like going to movies, so why must I be smitten for not liking the normal dating activities?? fuck it. back to my ankle.....that's the last time I listen to anyone but me about how to treat a sprained ankle. parent's kept telling me to ice it, so I finally came up, took it out of my boot and iced it. then i had to go to the bathroom. so I put my boot back on >scream< and now walking on it hurts so much more htan when I first hurt it. Next time I just leave my boots on till I'm ready for bed. hopefully this will be better tomorrow. we'll have to see. I was hoping to start biking this week. Current Music: Headstrong - Hoodies & Hoods (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 1st, 2004
11:07 pm	went camping to Ricketts Glen this weekend. it was a good time Low friday 15, high sat 45 low sat 25. about 18-24 inches of snow around the place and 18" of ice on the lake. I have pictures but I have no server to put them on. I didn't get to the falls trails because of the excessive snow. next time I'll go prepared with some snow shoes. or cross country skis. still no job, and I only have haether for another week or 2 tops. I have another kid coming for ap work, but he's pro bono since i offered it to him. maybe I'll see if the township guys could use an extra hand for a couple months. The weather looks warm for the rest of the week with rain on and off. I think it's time I got my bike out and started riding. I've made a nice gut for myself in the last 2 months. time to get rid of it. although I think I'm going to get some street tires for it. I'll have to talk with reid to get a little webspace on his server so I can do pictures here in the future. but he's got exams for the next week. so that's not going to happen for a little while. Current Music: Liquid Tension Experiment - Liquid Dreams (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, February 20th, 2004
1:10 am	dinner last night, pork wit hno gravy or kraut. tonight hot turkey sandwiches. bleh. it was good, just wasn't really in the mood for either one just got 12 more new scouts. this is where it starts getting interesting. On the plus side, not working means that this can't happen to me. sorry k Fuck everything. and why am I trying so hard to find music I want to listen to tonight? Current Music: Trust Company - Finally (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
11:59 pm	old peple have it so good. i was riding around on one of their little scooter jobbies, that thing kics some serious ass. although stopping from full tilt it wants to toss you out, but that's a different story. All girls suck, except the ones that don't. I cracked teh lens on one of my foglamps. it was the darker one, but I need to get that replaced soon. I think i'm getting fat. I need it to get warmer so I can actually get out on my bike for a while. do me some good. there's been stuff going on, I just can't remember any of it.. go fig. Still waiting to hear back from lockheed. no clue what's going on there. maybe i'll just do these at odd times and all the time Current Music: CKY - 96 Quite Bitter Beings (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 15th, 2004
11:48 pm	I WANT A FUCKING JOB!!!!!!!!!! Some more friends would be nice too. I just want it all to change, soon. Current Music: Rayzing Sons - How Good It Feels (pre-production mix) (Comment on this)
Saturday, February 7th, 2004
10:33 pm	Total we had about 8 " of snow on the ground before the last 2 warmer low pressure systems moved through. the second one along with 40 degree temps made the most melt. I now know what a missing engine feels like. Huge puddles put water where it doesn't belong in my engine. It's really hard to drive the car when it's doing that. And now it's all freezing again. Valley forge road was closed for a section because the ice was so bad. It was apparently an afterthought because the first salt trucks weren't out till after 8 wherease they should have been out at 6. DC4 is actually a pretty good little band along with rayzing sons. check them out if you can find them. I'd offer the songs, but my router is a little whore, so it's not always possible. I did the first crossover of the season tonight. We got 7 more boys into our troop. We're scheduled to take 30 in, just in february. I'ts gonna start getting really insane in our troop for a while. I think I want to try a stealth mod with one of my SBC units. but having trouble trying to come up with something because of their size. I want the item to retain it's original functionality. The last amber alert is over. they found the girl's body. I hope this helps parents learn that a child is not ready to handle the world at 11. this shouldn't be something parents should need to be taught though. Americans are just fat lazy pigs. people willl search for the remote for 10 minutes rather than going and turning on the tv at the set. try it sometime. hide the remote and watch what happens. low carb diet. of course it works. most of the bodies fuel comes from carbohydrates. cut them, and you drastically reduce the calories your body gets, and therefore you'll lose weight. heaven forbid you work out if you want to lose weight. at school i'd walk 1-2 miles a day. it helped balance out the food that i ate. here, nowhere close, so I'm trying to cut down on the snacks. less junk, more juices. just something to balance the change in my life. people just suck. Current Music: DC4 - 4196 (Comment on this)
Sunday, February 1st, 2004
1:15 am	blah. ok. fuck these piece of shit sbc's they are so god damn unstable. at least my first shot with them only cost me $45 plus procs. A low cost experiment. still haven't gotten a call from lockheed. Finally watched run lola run tonight. if you watch it with the english dub, I'll kick you in the nads. it has to be seen in german with subs. Reid's looking for parts for a new machine better than 1.2 ghz. I've got 2 fucking 1.2 durons sitting no teh shelf along iwth a whole gig of registered, buffered RAM. only used in server boards. if you can hear me reid, get a server board that can use it' it's yours 50% cost ($100). it's been similar to syracuse down here of late. has'nt been above 35 for about 3 weeks. just less snow. we've got something like 8" on teh damn ground. I'm now used ot it again. my dad's pissed. he's got shit he wants to do outside. we have snow drifts again since most people have gotten rid of their snow fences long ago. it's nice to see white out here for so long. I'ts fucking late again. I was up really fucking late last night. I need soemthing to fucking change. it should be employment, and soon. I need something. If i masturbate much more my fucking dick is going to fall off, and my hands will have enough hair to do osmething good for kemo patients. Somehow, I just feel like breaking something. something big. something i can take some time in destroying so I can enjoy it. vqjkh Current Music: High Fidelity. The movie, it's not a song. deal with it (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 28th, 2004
8:40 pm	Ladder Theory If the woman is in the power position then it is a measure of how much the man will spend money on her, fetch her things at midnight, and listen to stories about other guys she is fucking. Now wait one fucking minute. That means' I'm at the bottom of every girl's fucking ladder. www.laddertheory.com that was a clip from page 5 you abuseive fucking whores. you can all kiss my hairy white ass and lick my hairless nutsack (1 Comment |Comment on this)
5:01 pm	10 days, shit. Not much going on each day, but day to day I guess some stuff has happened. Job: congrats to Russ Dorand. He's the leader in the find Chris a job Sweepstakes. He told his dad, and his dad connected me with someone at lockheed that wants me down there. Now i'm just waiting for the call to set up the interview. The downside is HR at this locale is not quite up to par. Mike got his new computer a while back, and gave me the one I made for him 3 years ago. K6-2 550, 256, 30, 8x4x32. I've already pulled the heatspreader off it, and am on the OC course. I want to get it up as close to 700 as I can. I'd like to run it head to head with a athlon 700. Surplus Asset is having it monthly sealed bid sale. This month there's a whole lot of shit. either it's crap or the bid lot is too big. ie the 39 pallats of cd duplicater hardware. 39 fucking pallats. that would be so much easier to get rid of in smaller lots. Either way I nammed a 500MHZ processor out of one of teh boxes before leaving. There were some 128M simms in another machine I found today, but it was in a high traffic area. I couldn't have made it off with them. monday there were a couple computers that still had drives in them. those had since been removed. I'll just stick to ebay this mothh I suppose. My dad sent me this link to a lovely 1972 ford Ranchero GT Boy do I wish I had the funding for that baby. We've got all kinds of snow up here this year, and it's all the super light stuff. Too bad we haven't seen it for such a long time. People don't put up snow fences anymore. Good things from other people to amuse you Brother: group of friends at cornell watching movie set in winter Kid from LA, "What's that thing" Group "A Snow Blower" Kid from LA "why on earth would you want to blow snow??" Rest of Group >dies of laughter< Laura [1931] *** Auto-response from Laura: ya know its not that fact that you kill people that bothers me, but do you have to giggle each time? thats spooky man So after all that, I'd like to wish you all a Happy Winter-een-mas The first Winter-een-mas (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 18th, 2004
9:46 pm	I'm gone for one weekend. 81 emails, exactly 0 were important. and only 2 were from sources I know. Klondyke Derby was cool. one of our patrols came in third. I worked my ass off this weekend and will probably never get thanked by everyone. a few kids were helpful, but most were just irritating. The rest of the leaders were pretty much leeches. some exceptions, but I'm done cooking for them for a while. I've been pampering them on the last couple trips I cooked for them. fuck 'em. they can fend for themselves for a while till they appreciate me. new tent worked great. we had snow and rain last night into today, it was completely dry in side. cozy too. I need ta add to the fly though. it needs a vestibule. I am completely exhausted now though. maybe 3 hours of sleep friday night then about 7 last night. I'm just gonna pass out till teusday. Current Music: Liquid Tension Experiment - Hourglass (Comment on this)